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toodles!

Hahahaha i swear i've got intentions to update again
Just that this few days i've been doing this and that and so on
Okay, but anyhow i am still here ;D

Hollymolly! and so a few events had zoomed into my life and ended again
Namely my dearest nephew's birthday bbq!
council farewell
Xmas celeb with allstars

These events have been great, like this december is so happening without any TRAININGS, any irritating organisation courses or whatever shit that requires me to type and edit and type and edit. (HAHAHAHA, dearest stjohn juniors, hang onnnnnnnnnnnn)
But then i may be wrong, i heard that they enjoyed those courses, so haha!

Oh by the way my family went to the ultimate mt faber on x`mas day!
Hahahaha, ultimate i'd say. spent close to fortyminutes to walk up to Jewel Box, went to the toilet, then went down again back to carpark.
We could have gone further but we were are feeling sticky and bored.
Apparently, Jewel Box isn't fun at all in the day as compared to night time. like doh!

Feel so much like posting all the photos i took with council and allstars
but gah, i'm using the computer w/o any photos of them.
so, D:

Though, x`mas party was good. Just thought i'd say sorry to you and you and you and you and you
hahaha not so many though, but you guys know it (;
Anyhow, i even received a few unfriendly glances from somebody CAN YOU BELIEVE IT.
But whateveeer. it was probably coincidental.


I'm so lost i dont know what subjects i should choose and damn when i enter jc, a levels are probably going to come soon =.=
it's going to be the next year in a few days, sch's reopening and shit, i am of no difference as to a secondary one freshie now. Shit.

Anyway, SURPRISE SURPRISE, I finally got myself a new blog with a drop dead gorgeous url. Only my dearest petal calista and my brother know it for now though!
Hahahaha xD


Not that i've not read this enough, but it's difficult not to agree with it (got it from yangxinzi)
You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next year,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.





On a much lighter note,

i love this boy, so much (;

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHA
HI GUYS, I AM BACK!
LOL

It's been more than a month and yadayadayadayadayada
O LEVELS ENDED
SJ FAREWELL ENDED
SQUAD CHALET ENDED
PROM NIGHT ENDED

And I'm left with tons and tons of photos!
Yes! And I am going to do something to this blog address I don't care!

Guess I lost the touch to write a post after sooo long.
So toodles! Till i get the inspiration back to write.

& damn I miss a lot of people DDDDDDDD:
SO, Please call me! (HAHAHAHAHA)

Spent the last 25minutes reading my posts from last year.
What a waste of time, when im supposed to be studying, eh?
And i realised so many have changed. The attitude, the relationships.
Hahaha. How i miss those times. be it the chiangrai trip, stjohn and the friendships.
Talk about the good old days. :)




By the way, Im here to say Im doing fine.

And you guys should too. All the way and hang on, sec fours.
and cheer! Because we are about to leave the present and embrace the new future very soon.
:DDDDDDDDD


K-I-T, and not lose them, I say.

Hello. Rather dumb, I just took some random quiz and it says " what movie do you belong to?" Hoho and after answering a few questions, they refered me to the POWER RANGERS MOVIE.
;DDDDDDDDDDDDD
Okay maybe not so bad. Cuz power rangers was indeed one of my favourite movies when i was a kid. Hahaha and i just watched it yesterday with my cousins.
Took the huge and old dusty LD out from the cupboard.
Man I've got like over three hundred of such huge discs at home.
Bet if i sold off all of them, they'll probably cost more than a thousand.
Original pieces eh!
Anyway i can't, cux these are my dad's collections. Hahah (:

poop, like preliminary exams are all over.
Os is like the next big thing already.
Kinda lost the momentum already. Hahaha but i'll start tmr.

Results tmr, i probably see more of Bs and even Cs. Hahaha sounds depressing.

So i'll go catch some sleep already.

Stay alive, world. I'm changing this blogtitle very soon.
Makes me feel childish.

My, today wong told me she'd never forget me.
Man, it was a really short and simple, but it meant so much to me.
Just when Im really about to lose faith in keeping a friendship through all odds.
Thankyou.


Hahaha, it's rather funny like the promises people always make and the words that indicate the friendships among us. Even the time spent together right after school.
Now, friends just rush off in their own cliques, without bothering about you
Things just change, huh?
I say it's pathetic.

Still, Im trying to make an effort to change these.
Till then, we'll see.


Well, I just needed to remember (:

Right, Im so glad i've survived through another week.
This week has been better.
Maybe like what huan says. Let go let go let go.
I will, but i'll keep the friendship too.
And i really hope one day we'll get back to how we used to be.
Man, sounds so lovey dovey, but I'll work hard.
And i hope the other party will too =x

Anyway, school still sucked as usual.
Math and physics too.
confessed to my dad on how i've been faring for math and physics tests.
and im surprised my dad just chuckled and told me to work harder.
Very encouraging. hahaha (:


Realised i've drifted apart from so many people.
People i wanted to really keep close to.
But the thing is, they left to quickly for me to reach out for them.
Then again, if you think it's you, think about it :)

I don't know what else i want to say here.
But yes, after last week's of lousy moods, i thought i should start looking at life in another angle.
Maybe i'll feel better, so should you, if you're feeling lousy (:


ps/glenn is funny. We've been online for more than an hour just to decide our attires. Hah!

I wouldn't mind if things can get back to how they used to be

Maybe I'd know what I've done wrong

Ps: Thanks, people.

&damn, my blog address's getting more&more embarrasing =x

Damn cause the post's just feels so embarrassing =x



















much better like that. hahaha

You know i've got this tendency to just type " i'm sooo emo now"
but then i thought it's so shallow and the grammer is bad.
Anyway, here's a decent post, i promise (:

My tuesdays have been great, I must say. Because i get to see my friends who keep me going.
Sheesh and im so glad each of them agreed to join the so-called study sessions.
But it's more of a get-together for me cause we talk for like 50%(or more) of the time.
Still, im glad, really (: SO PLEASE, NEVER TELL ME YOU DO NOT WANT TO STUDY WITH ME ON TUESDAY x)
Cause i realised that's the only day we can get together and bully one another now.



And i thought this time round i should not leave out the fun i got with yvette and xinzi in class.
These two are the ones who keep me going too. On the fact that yes-i-cant-survive-alone-in-class-w/o-them. This's a little exaggerating but yeah it brings out what i want to say.



Recesses aren't that bad now either. I get yvette no matter what with me every day now, even when wong and yeo share different recesses with me. Hahaha if you don't know, i used to get very upset when nobody goes to recess with me. I'll walk around and find friends and realised they've all gone down with their own cliques. which leaves me rather depressed. but those are the old days xD Still, loneliness kills, not to say those insecurities.



Okay and i think this post's getting rather weird now. like im writing a report on myself instead.

Hahhaha



And to the friend who doesn't talk, or in a better phrasing, hardly talk to me anymore, damn I AM SAD. You know what, i've just read through those post entries few years ago and even the primary school photos, the diaries, whatever things that remind me of you. And i don't know why. I don't know why you're being so cold to me. I don't know why you're ignoring me. I don't know why you pretend to ignore my presence when you know im there. I don't know why you choose to talk to people whom you've just known rather than a friend who have been your friend for like, say a number of years? I don't know why and i wish i knew. There's even this very significant letter which i received two years back from you. HAHA. i read those words. nice one. great promise of friendship. and now they've all been taken back, you're trying to say? Fine, if i've offended you or treated you badly and i would have accepted your treatment towards me now. BUT MIND YOU, what have i done? It's been months, i say. Okay maybe not. maybe it's just like two months? but that's enough, hello?! it hurts. DAMN IT, it really does. And it makes me feel so insecure sometimes, seeing my friends being able to communicate with you so well, but not myself. It makes me feel so out-of-nowhere, like i belong to nowhere when i hang out with the friends you hang out with too. It makes me feel lousy, like im a lousy friend, a lousy person. everything. It sucks, i tell you.
And how i wished i had somebody to tell all these.
I tried, but the people are just so nonchalant about it.
Not that Im blaming anyone, but yeah, like it's just between me and the one who doesn't talk to me.
Still, it hurts when i see people in big groups chatting so haopily.
It even hurts more when i see small groups of close friends sitting together and caring for one another.
Sometimes i hope i just have one person beside me.
The more i keep telling myself not to think too much, the more i feel like im deceiving myself.
Why am i even typing all these, the key person's probably ignores me to the extent that she doesn't even bother to come here.
But please, don't come to me just because you read this and is feeling sympathetic.


Damn it, these are like words screaming out loud for the whole world to see.
Feels naked. But maybe this's the only way left for me to convey my message to you.


Then again, people please don't come to me and say you're feeling sorry for me.



Feel so much to wallow in self-pity and stare at the walls blankly
But i know i can't. Prelims are probably really going to come in a few more weeks.
Maybe it'll get better when i get out of this school and face new people.





Unbelieveably, it's math mock exam tmr.